Eh ... not really sure if I can explain it since it's confusing to me too and it seems like no one else is experiencing it.
My vision self isn't willing to accept me as the same individual as them, but I'm not weak enough that he can just take over and dismiss this life in Port Manteau as fake and worthless. I'm also not willing to accept him as part of me because of what he's done and how he behaved, so... ?
I guess you could just chalk it up to me being unstable if that's easier. That's what everyone else has done that knows, I think. Not that I really care what they think, either, so I don't mean that bitterly.
That, uh, sounds a little more like split personality...? Or what Forte worries about and how our other selves will override us one day. I wouldn't tell him that.
I just mean... it doesn't affect me. I don't feel anything, so you're the one it's a real trouble for. So you should do what makes you feel best. I'm not so self-conscious to demand anything from you like that.
But... I meant I don't feel anything when you sense these things about me. I can't tell if you're doing it or not, so it doesn't cause any discomfort, you know?
... and it should be obvious, but I'm only just starting to tell people about it. Disorder, mostly, and people I trust. So it's not like a known thing, because... y'know. Just like you said - it's a dangerous one to have.
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Well, I do.
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My vision self isn't willing to accept me as the same individual as them, but I'm not weak enough that he can just take over and dismiss this life in Port Manteau as fake and worthless. I'm also not willing to accept him as part of me because of what he's done and how he behaved, so... ?
I guess you could just chalk it up to me being unstable if that's easier. That's what everyone else has done that knows, I think. Not that I really care what they think, either, so I don't mean that bitterly.
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That, uh, sounds a little more like split personality...? Or what Forte worries about and how our other selves will override us one day. I wouldn't tell him that.
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Forte's doesn't come off like one of those that would qualify to me.
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Yeah, well.
[ ... a beat. ] if it bothers you, I have these headphones. They don't work all the time, but I can try to wear them around you. It'll stop the noise.
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[ he seems a little uncertain as he says it stuffing the ring back in his pocket. ]
Anyway. I don't think you're unstable.
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Aha! Well, thanks, I appreciate it.
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But... I meant I don't feel anything when you sense these things about me. I can't tell if you're doing it or not, so it doesn't cause any discomfort, you know?
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- Even so if there's ever a day you can just tell me.
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... and it should be obvious, but I'm only just starting to tell people about it. Disorder, mostly, and people I trust. So it's not like a known thing, because... y'know. Just like you said - it's a dangerous one to have.
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[ sorry if he's a lil more awkward there, sam. ]
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Anyway, I probably should let you have some peace.
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Well, at the very least, probably should heat up the hot chocolate.
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[ winces. ] Crap, I'm so sorry.
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