That depends on the person and I don't know you that well.



There's a range? People who are curious about the Legends and want the answers. People who've been shown another life and want to reclaim it however they can. People who think that being here helps people, because others can't take their place. People who want to be here because want to protect people they care about.


... or people who are here because they believe they can't be a person anywhere else.

It's a blessing and a curse.

[ mildly humored. but he considers a moment, pulling the hot cocoa to him as he asks: ]

So you're doing it to distract them and not for yourself?

Is that a generalized "you" or a you pointing at me or...?

[ tilts his head ]

It also depends on if you're trying to avert the question.

[ He raises a brow. ]

You don't have to tell me it at an angle. You can just say it in whatever is feel is true.

[ he shrugs a little moving to take a drink but first: ] I'm not going to flinch or whatever.

[ To his credit: He doesn't flinch. He does stiffen in surprise at how easily he switches to it. And even if he doesn't quite feel things from him, he doesn't think it's a lie. It's why the drink goes down and his brows furrow together. ]


... And you think that's something the ship can give you? Why?

Well, supposedly we're all immortal so you might have trouble with the first one.

Mild.

[ He quiets as he looks at the drink and for a brief moment - even to Sam who knows him little he's perhaps not the same kid. Quiet. Still. Like he's sucking in the world around him.

He bites the inside of his lip. ]

I'm not sure that's an answer you'll get here. Or, maybe it will be but that's - maybe not the reason you should be here?

No?

[ immediately: ] I don't care about becoming a Legend I care about the people behind them.

... Not sure how to describe caring about people as more than that, honestly?

[ a beat. ]

I guess it's like if we assume those that are "Ghosts" are like us and also "Legends" or on the way to become Legends or whatever... They've also been forgotten. No one on Disorder cared about them and the only thing people are interested in is getting information from them.

Which, yeah, I get but - they were still people. They are still people - just like us. It'd suck to only be cared about because I might be useful or whatever so I... try to talk to them and visit? And stuff. I don't ask about any of that and -

[ shrugs. ] I don't know what I'm trying to say. Just, that's how I "care" in that case. I know it probably sounds ridiculous.

[ Sincerely, seriously, and immediately with no room in his headspace for another choice: ]

Literally not an option.

First: vision selves real or fake?

Yeah.

So if they're real then I'm the reincarnated son of a witch and an android. I'm their literal wish come true. I shouldn't even exist or be real, but here I am.

[ a beat okay so that's barely an explanation. ]

Did you know I'm an amnesiac? Here and there. It's - part of the reincarnation package. I only remembered a name there. My twin's name - I couldn't remember anything else. But eventually I was able to remember the moment we died and that let me bring him back from just a memory.


"Family is forever. We could never really leave each other even if we tried."



[ he's not sure that even gets to half the explanation but- ]

[ A pause. He shakes his head. ]

I'm saying I refuse to let that happen. I won't forget who I am. I will always be me. Whoever I decide that is - all of it. That everything about who I am and where I come from counteracts that and I'll find the power to make sure it stays that way.






Which I know sounds like wishful thinking, but I came from wishful thinking. I'm going to believe in it. For all of us.